Apologies
“Is it meaningless to appologise?
Never.”
If I just knew how to say I’m sorry
Without the fuzz and ties;
Without unwittingly following a script
Not of my choosing;
Without inadvertently entering a game
Of guilt, analysis and righteousness;
A simple I’m sorry;
A breath of warmth into the icy air.
A bare token of surrender
To the inadequacy of humankind.
A sorry that floats above all that;
A gesture that reaches beyond.
Not because I think it the solution,
Not because I do not want that too;
But because I don’t know, and I don’t care
And In this very moment
I just want to feel
The space between us to be whole.
I wish I could,
In all my nothingness,
Connect you and me
To the parts in ourselves
That are already so:
Whole, healed, loving, loved.
Floating above all that.
From nobody to nobody:
I am sorry.
Little hedgehog, London 2022